i'm bored. pfftttt ^%&*%$^%^ today i went to mummy's house. went back to bedok to meet aunt & mama. then mama decided to go off first. so left me alone. while waeting fr aunt, i went to one of the shops at central. went in & look around. then aunt came. she help me to decide which clothes to buy. so yeah. have made up my mind & i've selected one. i thought it was $13 but when i paid at the counter, the cost at the screen appears $31. shit! idk wahts wrong w my eyes. ergh! luckily i didn't bought two at a tym. i thought its a cheap cheap scate one but it turns to be a costly one. luckily i paid using a big note money. if not, idk waht'll happen & tomorrow i'll be going out w girlfriend. yehooo! lyk finally cyuls. i really really didn't miss hr but its just taht i've been longing to meet hr. y'know?! & please. ain't an ego, okay. pleeeeaaasseee laaaaaaaaaa! yet! fr tmr, idk waht to buy fr babygirl's birthday present as well as aunt. thought of buying aunt the latest mascara as have planned earlier. uhr kau! geeeedeebaak geedeeebussshhhh! i'm only left w $19 & of course the plan of bringing 3rd sister will be cancelled. will be going out without hr. pity hr. i've promised hr to bring hr out & to treat hr long john silver's. but too bad. its gonna be a next tym outing okay baby. i guess i'll buy something taht's cheap yet the quality is valuable. but waht should taht be??? hmmmm^^

*(incase if taht person read this post, this is fr you my dear bitch)*
i've viewed taht someone tagged as well as hr blog. owh shit! i guess she is showing off to guys taht she is really really a BITCH. i swear its as if you're selling off your body w taht kind of looks. SUMPAH!!!! KAU BUROK!! heehh (; its the fact. well, no point going to people's blog & spam on their taggy. i guess its super duper stupid but to satisfy me, i'll just wrote it here. hey. its my blog waht. so, its up to me whether should i or shouldn't i talk about you here. i just pity you. i guess you are seeking fr attention, as well as SYMPATHY. its no wrong fr me to write about you here but, aftr waht you've done to my friendship i guess you deserves it. by looking at your pictures taht you've just uploaded. many tend to hate you. especially me cause i've never liked you before neither do i tried to like you & to accept you as "a friend". too bad i can't. cause to me, you are totally nonsensical. i'm sorry.

i've been busyly going out nowadays & have to be home before 7 aftr i had taht nightmare. see. didn't i told you taht i'm abit phobia now to go home at late hours. so yea. have been spending my tym at mummy's house which is far far away frm my house. purposely asked 3rd sister to skipped school as i tend to be bore. suddenly mummy shouted, asking 3rd sister whether she's going to school. the 3 of us kept silent. then mummy continues sleeping. aftr a while mummy woke up & it was 1245 pm. 3rd sister told mummy taht i purposedly didn't let hr go to school & then mummy pissed off w us. 3rd sister was asked to send 4th sister to school & aftr taht we went to central. went back to mummy's house & 3rd sister starts to irritate me. purposely chose a nyce spot to did some of art work which is at the corner of the house & tahts whr we ate, crack jokes & camwhored. then i left at 5.

i've been having 'bad luck' dreams & nightmares. i swear taht my nightmare are f*****g scary. i've never had this type of nightmare before which resulted me in total frightening & taht is a banshee came into my dream, scaring me all over the house & all i do is to shout out aloud fr help. i've told mum about this & she said it serves me right cause i've been going home late fr 3 days straight. tahts why i had this type of nightmare. its so scary & its as if i'm somehow have the feeling of phobia. right now i'm home since morning & i'm showing tantrums. idk why its out of a sudden till everything taht i ate doesnt seem to agree w my throat. ergh!! i want something nyce but idk waht to eat. thought of buying food but i'm too lazy to go out although i've money & yet those money taht i had are supposed to b used fr babygirl's birthday present & thought of going to the salon to dye my hair. hmm^^ we'll see how. recently, something just happened. which i dont wish to elaborate more on it. but!!! its totally unbelievable & taht particular person gotta be shitting me huh! i swear! i hate you! you dont deserve kindness frm us. furthermore, you've change frm bad to worse. & waht now? trying to act cool huh? i'll somehow show you one day how i felt when you raise your voices on me. i'll remember the wrongs taht you've done & i'll make sure taht you will somehow get it back. just so you waet & see bloody hell.

(we met fr once, fr the very very 1st tym, we spent our tym together & thr you go. you left me w your meaningful hugs.) i wish this would be in reality. i miss you so. it is worthless if i were to describe in words. i want you here. right now. but i know. you wouldn't be thr. because you'll never be thr whenever i need you. you left me w silent tears & yet you kept appearing in my dreams without fail also leaving behind thousands of question marks. nevertheless, am i missing you or not, only you yourself know how i felt & still idk fr waht reason why you didn't want to come back. you are typical & its difficult fr me to communicate w you cause you wouldn't want to. idk fr waht, why & how many thousands of reasons should i still waet fr you. i'm puzzled. you left me fr months, leaving behind no news of you. i apologise to those whom i've badly turned down. i'm sorry. i lied, i'm a heartbreaker. you dont deserve me cause imma heartbreaker & i'll never looked back as soon as my mind is fully set. i'm sorry.

daddy said this was at batam w dad's uncle

one of my cousin on dad's side at batam

hello darlings! i've finally decided to put my linkos thr & as you see its very few. i've deleted those links who are f***ing dead & some, i've lost yours. if you wanted to be linked, tagged me aye & please! please! please! please leave your email as well. so yeah. i guess today i'm in a good mood. i've been busy-ing browsing on some older people's blog. cool huh! really. they put their children's picture too. adorable! speaking of the kids, yesterday i found some childhood pictures of mine which are left rotted in the cupboard long long ago. i did captured some of the pictures & set it as my wallpaper as i find it adorable ^^. so yeah, i'm rotting at home & have been sitting in front of my lappy fr hours. mummy & foster aunt did asked me to come to their houses whenever i'm bored as they are full tym housewives. aunt's house is nearby here whereby mummy's house is at bishan.  whereas, i'm still waiting to be called fr a job as i've applied fr two jobs at the same tym & yet to be called by them. please! please! please! hopefully i will get either one of the jobs. but i'm hoping to get the same job as sabina. so, i can see hr everyday lyk how we used to during school tym & to tolerate w hr when she starts to irritate me (;

( mind you. taht is an ink on hr body & this is hr when she's at home )

i've been going to mummy's home at bishan frequently & going home late late at night. since mummy had asked me to go thr whenever i'm bored. so yeah. thr's once whr sister came w afan tagging along. keycoh paahh? afan felt awkward till she have the thought waeting outside instead of going in. i laughed out loud the minute they came till youngest sister kept on whispering to me about her. irritating huh taht little girl. she tend to get irritated & pissed off w afan's behaviour & aftr a moment, they tend to get closer & took pictures together. but i felt a bit of embarrasing cause of my lil bro's attitude. i swear taht his behaviour is as lame as a freak. he's trying to get afan's attention by showing off he's true colours to me by saying things he rarely use to me. he's bloody awful. isn't he ashamed of his attitude taht's trying to acting a gangster. he's acting as if he's one. i could only get along w my sisters & not hym. he's very irritating & i find hym an attention seeker. you sux!

( psst! girlfriend has left fr Bali. will be back in 2 days tym. boring! )

sms-ed sabina yesterday & then i called her. the minute she answer my call, i immediately shouted her name out loud on the phone cause i miss her alot! luckily i get the opportunity to talk to her. we share alot on the phone. maybe next or next two weeks she'll take her day off & was asked to meet her. haaah. cant waet to meet up w her. i really really miss her siaa. i wish we would spent tym agaen lyk how we used to during school tym but i guess taht wont happen cause tym changes. well, she's getting busy & busier nowadays as she's working frm night shift. saaaabbbbb! jupe cpt cpt yok. aku ad byk cite nk blg kau. i miss youu baby (;

i'm upset w waht i've just seen & i dont wish to elaborate on waht i've seen. yes! i'm very very upset. i thought aft taht night things would changed & get back to normal. but i'm totally wrong. i've been having these kinds of fake hopes which in the end turn me down. i thought by giving in & by giving some face things would really really change cause i miss those tyms. idk who to turn to now. i felt as if world is really really unfair to me. is this waht i want or is this waht they want? do they know how & waht changes me? i really really am in doubt now. i cant bear to burden all this. i swear! i've had enuff of this nonsense. why should i tell each & everyone of your wrongs when you youself do not realise it? why should i changed my mind & treat you lyk how i used to? this is the reason fr why i am too ego. if i've not did taht, i wouldn't have end up lyk this. i've been giving you guys too much of face. you guys did this & taht neither in front of me or on my back, i kept still. w taht, you guys take it fr granted & you guys thought taht i can tolerate your nonsense. i wont kick a fuss out of it cause i know i'm not in thr wrong neither did i done anything wrong. do you think i am stupid? yes right?! yes i am cause i've been tolerating w each one of your behaviour. you guys totally sux. each one of you are categorised in these types of nicknames. one is KB, PC & PH. wana know why? because you guys love to create attention. am i wrong? naahh. i dont think i am. by telling your mum everything about me since now & then will taht help? this tells me taht its as if you are the one in the right path & i'm in the wrong one cause you've the thinking taht you're not wrong as i dont tell you waht & whr gone wrong. thr's a solution to resolve it but i wont & i dont want to cause i wont & dont want history to repeat. therefore i'm going away frm you guys. futhermore, before we are in this situation, i've found those symptoms which tells me something's gona happen soon. yes! i can sense taht & yes it really happens. nothing will change me. you guys cause me to end up in this situation. & now, i've to accept the fact taht we are two & not three, four or five. the picture in the previous post are the fun taht i had which only lasts fr a night therefore i thank you guys fr making an effort to cheer me up. yet, taht will also not change me cause i have the right to choose my own path.

i've been attending to 4a4's chalet since monday night. didn't want to go cause i really really feel awkward as it was meant to be their 'class chalet' but since girlfriend had asked to, i accompanied her. on the first night, we reached thr around 12 to 12 plus & was fetched by qila & dan. dan was being too irritating the minute he saw me. it was lyk we've not met fr years. yes! he is irritating. very! i came into surprise as i thought the whole lot of 4a4 students was thr but in the end its a only a few who turned up. while the 4a3 are just next to 4a4 & it seems lyk majority are chinese except fr 2 to 3 are malay students. aaaaaaannnnnddddd i thought taht when i came, i would be criticised instead they are being kind & friendly to me. we did crack jokes all thru the night till one by one of us went up to sleep & i'm left w the 3 of them who are yet awaked. so, we decided to off all lights thinking taht we could sleep instead we lie on the mattress & camwhore. we taunt till morning. decided to go to the waterbreaker to see the morning dew. we chatted all the way till 6 plus & get back to chalet. out of a sudden my eyes are red & was asked to join them to sleep. agaen, dan being the irritating one. irritated each one of us till it turns to total silent. as fr the second night, agaen i came w girlfriend & sister tagging us along. went up to the room w mok & the others as he said he wanted to play some games. in the end, the boys played card games, tend to be bore & start chatting till we fall asleep. well, i really had fun w you guys. you guys treat me well although i'm an outsider.
bottomline:
happy belated birthday to two of my october babies.
(you knw who you are)

my phone's keypad is damaged. mcm cheeebyeee! i wana change the keypad but i know it's not cheap. shit! better still. change into a new phone. thought of asking mum fr some money fr a trade into another phone but idk how to cause this is still new. just use it fr about 3 & a half months. is it possible fr me to trade in my phone in taht condition? ergh! but i still want my 5730 XM phone. );

is it possible to buy these phones? cause i'm looking fr a sliding up or a flip up phone.

SE T707

SE W508

SE C901

aftr browsing on these types of phones, i'm interested w either the 1st or the 3rd phone. thought of buying the 3rd one. but!!!! we'll see first if the bajet is enough to trade into a new phone. (;